jenuh

Jenuh tu gak kenal tempat. Sama seperti ngantuk, kalo tiba-tiba nyerang, rasanya pengen tidur aja. Gak peduli meskipun saat itu kita lagi ujian (pengalaman pribadi, Red.), lagi nunggu temen, lagi baca komik, lagi nyetir (hmm.. pengalaman pribadi ’seseorang’), ato bahkan lagi nulis-nulis blog kayak gini.. tiba-tiba aja ada godaan buat sedikit terlelap.. Begitu pula dengan jenuh. Tau-tau aja seluruh sistem saraf menolak untuk beraksi, tubuh dan otak tersugesti untuk menolak jadwal kerja yang dengan rapi direkam di memori. Cuma satu alasan tapi alasan itu mewakili aspirasi seluruh sistem kerja tubuh kita. It feels like my brain ordered ”oh, come on, it’s not finished yet.. go on.. you can do it..” but the body responded sufferingly “noo, not again.. I’m fed up with these stuffs.. leave me you jerk!! Ooh, here it comes another project!! I hate this!! Get me out of this hell!!” –versi yang lebih didramatisasi—

Tapi ya itu, jenuh itu datangnya all of a sudden. Beban-beban yang menumpuk di sepanjang garis x tiba-tiba mencapai titik ekuilibrium, lalu berhenti. Gak ada reaksi. And now that’s what happened. There are many things to do, papers with great numbers of money clearly written on, many jobs listed on my yellow notes, all laid on my messed-up table but there’s no such thing called ‘keinginan-tulus-dari-lubuk-hati-yang-paling-dalam’ to make it done. At least, at this time, when ‘fed up’ strikes.

See.. I’ve never been this bored before.. I do my projects half-heartedly, and the only thing goes on my mind is to get out, get away from papers, papers, budget, money, money, AC, PC, then go to the beach or the zoo or musholla or.. just a single four-walls is enough.. I don’t need lights, I just need a blanket.. and let me sleep.. But I think I won’t be able to sleep.. maybe I just can take a breath, in, out.. think about beautiful days ever happened to me.. think about this darkness, think about what I can do tomorrow, think about someebody of my past, think about me, think about sins… and by then I must be fallen asleep..

See.. I even don’t know what I’m saying.. I just keep writing and writing and all these tiring stuff is out... sorry for inconvenient odd sentences..