happy birthday

funny how we're looking back, as our birthday not only is a day apart but also has nice memories these three years..

on 2011, we were boyfriend and girlfriend-to-be..

on 2012, we were husband and wife-to-be..

on 2013, we are daddy and mommy-to-be..

(i hope in 2014 it wasn't as 2nd time daddy and mommy, we need a break :P)

before presenting the surprise (yes it was a surprise!), we were cozying up in our bedroom, talking about things while waiting patiently for the clock to ring at 12 a.m. it was a bit stupid, but comforting and cheap indeed. hubby never looked like preparing anything, so i guess he'd start doing something in the morning, like having fancy dinner or buying me new bags :P 

less than 15 minutes to go he wanted me to cook him noodles to kill times... i hesitated since it was too late of night! huney we'll go straight to sleep after kissing happy birthday, right? strangely he was okay, and got out of bed to the kitchen, said he'd cook by himself... and at 12 a.m. he came back in with all lamps turned off and the only lights are candles from the cake..

anyway, you might wonder what presents i got inside the box. instead of buying me things, he gave me hard cash!! come on now hubby, be creative XDD

happy 21!!

it's been a while since i posted this in this blog. i wrote arctic monkeys' lyrics because at that time i was in some kind of teenage confusion, which was later answered by God the following days and got me posting this one.

and the rest...is..our wedding. grateful for all of that.


By the way, i am now 21!!!

The boyfriend asked me out yesterday, he said that this year he didn't want to get through my birthday only by phone, so I spent hours with him.. Starting from 9.30 pm I was waiting for him outside and we went out for dinner.

We ate Indomie, no candlelights. (but darling promise me tonight or tomorrow we're gonna eat at Holycow Steakhouse yeee)

Then I wanted to go to karaoke lounge, hehehe, so we rode to Diva Salemba. Having entered at 10.30 pm, I sang Beyonce's, Kelly Clarkson's, and any other divas I'm famously known for singing terribly, and as the clock ticks by he finally gave me a rose.

Hiyaaaaaa... after this year we've been together that's the only flower you ever gave! *whips*

But that's not what I'm almost turned to tears for...

He handed me a gift box with a paper wrapping around written 'Welcome to 21' and guess what, he also printed out 3 film posters we watched together that marked our very, very first date.

How very sweet of him :) I don't ever care what's inside the box. In a correct order the movies he printed around would be:

Salt (mid-2010, I was in Bintaro for Prajab and asked him out in the weekend as I didn't have friends to do so)
Rise of Planet of the Apes (Sept 2011, mind the gap between the first movie... again I asked him out hahahaha, as if it's clearly seen who's into first, but nayy, it's a casual ask-out, funny how he sees this as a date)
The Three Musketeers (Oct 2011, this time it was on him, after dinner and watching footie we were finally a couple..)

but maybe what moves my heart the most is his letter that says: selamat ulang tahun calon istriku.

i am happy. completely.

Love is a Laserquest

do you still feel younger than you thought you would by now?
or, darling, have you started feeling old yet?
don't worry, i'm sure that you're still breaking hearts
with the efficiency that only youth can harness
and do you still think love is a laserquest?
or do you take it all more seriously?
i've tried to ask you this in some daydreams that i've had
but you're always busy being make-believe
and do you look into the mirror to remind yourself you're there?
or have somebody's good-night kisses got that covered?

when i'm not being honest, i'll pretend that you were just some lover
now i can't think of there without thinking of you
i doubt that comes as a surprise
and i can't think of anything to dream about
i can't find anywhere to hide
and when i'm hanging on by the rings around my eyes
and i convince myself i need another
and for a minute it gets easier to pretend that you were just some lover

when i'm pipe and slippers and rocking chair
singing dreadful songs about something
will i've found a better method of pretending you were just some lover?
will i've found a better method of pretending you were just some lover?

I know it's kinda lame to post lyrics at this entry, but since Alex Turner can't just stop making me swoon, I'm just gonna pretend that he wrote the abovementioned specifically for me. Click THIS if you want a listen. Happy birthday to me by the way.. :*

Life at 19

Hello, life, it's me Riris...

Sekarang umur saya udah 19 tahun. One more year to adolescence. Kadang-kadang kita baru merasa tertampar dengan keadaan diri sendiri kalo udah dekat-dekat hari ultah. Maksud saya, yak ampun, taun depan umur saya udah kepala dua, uda bisa dikawinin orang cyin! Sementara saya bahkan belum sarjana, kerjaan juga masih gini-gini aja, ilmu pun belum nambah sesuatu yang berarti. Yeap, so little time, so much to do, so much to plan. Juga four years already spent wasted karena tinggi saya gak nambah-nambah sementara konsumsi kalsium saya sudah dinyatakan bagus oleh tukang cek kesehatan. Dan ini berarti berakhir sudah doa dan harapan saya. Saya sudah gak bisa mengonsumsi Hi-Lo Teen lagi, gak bisa curi-curi Boneeto lagi.. buat apa? Toh tinggi badan saya sudah gak bisa diperjuangkan lagi *nangis*
Oh, sisi baiknya ngomong-ngomong, berat badan saya mencapai angka terbaik dan terjaga sampai sekarang. Voila, BMI saya cuma 19,67 dari yang sebelumnya 21an! Sungguh berkah dari-Mu Tuhan, saya janji akan menjaganya mati-matian.

Ngomong-ngomong, di usia 19 tahun ini, tidak banyak berubah sebenarnya. Saya masih suka main FM sampai tengah malam walaupun sekarang cuma pas weekend, saya masih suka karaoke, nonton film, dan pergi ke konser (malah lebih rajin dari sebelumnya), masih suka nonton bola sampai tengah malam juga, saya udah bisa pergi ke tempat-tempat pengisap harta dan masi bisa berderma ke tempat lain juga. Yeah, not much has changed actually, tapi setidaknya saya punya banyak rencana ke depan yang entah kapan baru bisa saya realisasikan. I mean, dulu waktu masi kere saya pengen les gitar, piano, kickboxing, lanjutin taekwondo, renang, fitness, les bahasa Spanyol, jalan-jalan ke New Zealand atau Yunani, at least ke Bali deh (ya Tuhan, saya belum pernah ke Bali!!!!) dan kalo saya cukup rajin berhemat dan gak males, itu bisa aja dilakukan. Di sisi lain, saya ingin sekali menambah ilmu ekonomi saya, sebagaimana tempat saya bekerja, biar saya gak bodoh-bodoh amat, biar saya kalo menganalisa berita atau informasi pakai dasar yang bener dan bukan sekedar insting liar, biar saya keliatan pintar kalo ngomong. Banyak hal ya yang saya inginkan? Well, masih ada hal-hal lain juga sih yang sama penting, saya punya adik-adik yang masih harus dibantu, dan saya juga masih harus memikirkan mau dibawa kemana pendidikan saya ini. Huff, kuliah itu mahal sobat. Kamu baru tau gimana rasanya saat harus membiayainya dengan uangmu sendiri. Yeah, shame on you, orang-orang-yang-6-tahun-gak-lulus-lulus. Dan tetep ya, ego saya masih tinggi, saya udah bertekad pingin masuk universitas bergengsi dan S2 di luar negeri, jadi banyak sekali hal-hal yang harus dipikirkan dari sekarang. Hidup memang memberi kita banyak sekali pertanyaan dan pilihan.

Yah walaupun saya ngomong gitu karaoke juga tetep jalan terus sih.

Dear life, sederhana saja. Saya sedang dalam proses menjalani hidup saya dengan sebaik-baiknya. I know that I'll be doing a lot of mistakes, I know that I'll regret a lot of things here and there, but just so you know, you can't beat me this time. I've told myself time and time again ever since my last birthday, I'll be growing up and be unbeatable. Maybe I can't be any prettier, can't be any skinnier, can't be any taller (sigh), can't be any smarter, but if something hits me hard, I won't just give it a scary look and hit it back, I'll learn how to do a bullet time so I can catch and shove it right to your face.


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*oh life, why can't I avoid talking about height and weight? i should've talked about something smarterrrr!

Being seventeen and not feeling any good..

Dulu kayaknya waktu masi kecil, saya nganggep umur 17 dan 20 taun itu sesuatu yang keren banget. Paling gak, umur 17 itu kita uda bisa punya KTP, SIM, dst dst, dan jadi remaja seutuhnya gitu lo. (plak! menampar pipi sendiri karena menulis kalimat seburuk barusan). Intinya, saya dulu berpikir jadi 17 itu sesuatu yang istimewa, paling gak secara hukum kamu uda diakui jadi warga negara yang mandiri. Apa yang ga hebat dari itu coba? Di masa-masa itu dimana saya masi maen power rangers dan smackdown, kalo uda remaja berarti saya bakal bisa makan-makan di kafe bareng temen (ya, dangkal sekali memang), beli majalah Gadis, dan make lipstick.

Tapi pas uda seumur gini, sigh, ternyata biasa aja ya? Kayaknya di lingkaran umur saya, usia 17 itu uda terjadi waktu saya masi sma, dan saya yang sekarang ini setara dengan usia 25 taun. Mulai dari kuliah aja deh, pagi-pagi saya sudah terbiasa langsung bikin kopi dan baca koran, diiringi bunyi radio panasonic jaman belanda saya yang gede. Kayak bapak-bapak. Hmm, berulang tahun ke-17 di saat anda berada di dunia kerja memang ide buruk. Bukan karena tempatnya gak layak, tapi juga secara pemikiran.. kadang saya merasa saya tidak sedang berulang tahun ke-17. Sigh, saya tidak percaya saya benar-benar menulis keiriin saya pada anak muda jaman sekarang.